A few months after I stopped taking my medication, I felt certain that I was being followed. I talked to myself in my psychotic world, especially at night when I could not sleep. I believed that people wanted to destroy me; to publish my thoughts. Dying seemed like the only solution. I thought about swallowing pills or cutting my veins.
Again, I was hospitalized.
My therapist suggested that we play a game. I agreed.
I saw a card with the title “don’t take pills”
And a card with the title “take pills”
I tossed the dice and arranged the cards under the titles.
These cards are powerful!
If they tell the truth this, it means that I should not stop the treatment
Because it will “screw up my life, big time”
The cards read: lack of communication with others; fear; evil thoughts and other scary messages. It really showed it and the whole conversation really touched me.
I was also surprised that he took me to his office and talked with me.
I felt that the therapist really cared and it touched my heart.
I gradually started to take my medications again.
I hope that I will never stop again. The results aren’t worth it.